I haven’t written in months.
But I should write something, atleast about my trying school term. About all my losses. About my physical health still not improving.
I just don’t know to start it. I don’t know when I will have enough time to breathe and figure out how to write it. Hopefully soon.
Why Ailíse Ó Mórdha?
Because for 28 years of my life, I didn’t know a single thing about my ancestors. My immediate family would continually tell me they don’t know anything before 1900s of where our family originated. After many years of being in a rut with life, I finally took to taking a challenge to first get myself out of the day-to-day struggles of depression and feelings of worthlessness. It’s taken me several years to step-by-step better myself to the point where I’m happy enough to want to learn how to love myself. I’m constantly pushing myself to research all the time. To learn everything I can about being healthier. Not just reading “do this, eat that,” but to actually understand why I should “do this” or “eat that” in the grand scheme of things.
Without getting too much into it in my first post, I will simply say one thing that has been obvious my entire life, but now that it’s near-confirmed, I’m happy to say it outloud. I’m Irish. My last name originates from the Gaelic Irish word, “Mórdha” which means “stately and noble.” And Ailíse. That’s the Irish Gaelic form of my first name. 🙂